it's hard to realise how little it takes to bring up good old issues. you know, that being pushy stuff. that not being enough stuff. that not making others happy stuff.

i hate it, yet can't turn off the litany in my head, even though i know it's not accurate, even though i know it is ridiculous, even though i slept over it.

i wish i could just snap out of it. ctrl-alt, del the programme. doesn't work though.