Sunday, February 02, 2003

i know it'll get better once we get used to being apart again, once we've established a new routine.
but why does it have to hurt so much right now?

it hurts that this girl i don't know has moved in with him and susi, it hurts that he doesn't find the time to talk properly, that everything, the fucked up new flatmate with a fucking rental video takes priority over me.

i want to be easygoing and understanding and accepting that this is a time of change for him, but i just don't want to get under the wheels of this new life he has there. i want some space in that new life. i want to be important to him.

and right now i just don't feel like i am.